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About Me
- Becky
- I just changed the blog to private if you want to be added to view it, I will need you to email me from the email address you use for your blogger login. I live in the the countryside of Northern Virginia, with my husband, one doberman named Goliath; and my five kitties, Dixie, Dexter, Holly and Mary and now Larry! I also love to paint and sing, but am not really good at either. I like finding people who enjoy finding happiness in all the small things, much like I try to do. It's the little things that keep us going.
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I am jealous of his best friend. I think he is going to ruin any chance he and I have of making things work, not because he doesn't like me but because he is young and misguided. He wants to lead him astray, take him out, sharking in bars and using him as a wingman and it makes me want to punch his lights out. Why do they get to go away together and I'm not even considered ? Just for once I would like to take priority. God, I'm a spoilt brat.
our six months was new years we had a wonderful time but i think deep down she hates me
I don't want to make this a resolution... more like a *promise*. I will close my heart to you once and for all... you won't ever get back in. Just remember you made the choice.
Regardless if it's anonymous or not, I cannot put my secret here.
I'm scared if I type it here...if I put it on the page, it will come true...and it will be all my fault. She'll be gone forever and I would never ever forgive myself for typing those words here.
My secret resolution is to stop purging.
i carry a big personal secret. i've tried to share but my friends don't want to be burdened with it. i am very sexual and sex with my wife is almost non-existent. i've had a super hot girlfriend for years. she left me for a little while and i found another girlfriend. then i got both of them together one night. one for the ages. no one would ever guess, but i have sex like a porn star.
i don't feel guilty about this. i think that male monogomy is just unnatural. we have to make things work for society and to love our mates, but we all desire to roam the fields and have sex with all the women. life is short. i embrace all that is wonderful in it. i take care of my obligations and try to not let anyone down. i've found that it's possible to juggle it all if you know your true self and your true motives. peace.
i still hate you eventhough i say im over it.. and i believe that i am. im happily in a relationship that is now over a year. we only dated two months and i have never cried so much in my life.. you made me miserable
I've never considered posting a secret. I know mine will just blend in with the rest. That's okay, and then it's not okay. I want someone to see it, maybe someone I know.
I liked this guy, and then this other guy came along. I found out he told his mother that out of all the girls he could be interested in, that something about me drew his attention. Since then, I liked him very much. I tried to get closer to him, but things just didn't work out. I'd like to talk to him at church sometimes and he's distracted easily. I want someone to be interested in me and what I have to say. It's been 2 or 3 years now, and I changed churches, and then so did his family (and him). Over the course of time, I fell in love with someone I thought was my soul mate. We are no longer together, and I know now it's a good thing. But this boy to from years back still invades my thoughts. I watch for him at church services. I listen to hear his voice sing. I wait in expectation for him to come shake my hand (like he does every service religiously), and when he doesn't I feel like a part of my day is not complete.
I don't understand. He's not the one for me, he doesn't believe like I believe. Not only that, but even if he did, his lack of interest...or how easy it is for him to be distracted by someone else is not desirable. I don't want him. So why do I feel this way? Why do I feel this connection with this guy my mind says I want nothing to do with. Even my heart...because he's not the one for me. Why do I feel like my day isn't as special when he doesn't show up for service?
I can't figure out why so many people would want to stay in an abusive relationship. Is it because they were never taught that they are worth something, and that there is someone special and just perfect for them out there..somewhere?
All these posts seem to be about love, or problems with such things. Anyone ever think about GOd? Yall wanna throw in the towel with life when you aint even tried the creator of life! You look for love in human beings that constantly make mistakes and you think that's as good as it's ever gonna get! I thank God I have a relationship with him and when a man comes along, I'll know for sure if hes the one for me. Not only that, but he'll be the one and only perfect man God had planned for me all along.
Life is rotten without God, and I"m not just talkin about "Jesus I accept you into my heart"..I'm talkin abot...read your bible, get the Holy Ghost (evidence speaking in other tongues), live according to the word of God..get baptized in Jesus name...That's when life changes.
That's not secret, I love my God.
You may believe you are strong, that you will never be like those "weak" women who let me verbally/physically abuse them. Who stay even though they KNOW BETTER. But it happens slowly... you don't even see it coming until you're so deep in it it feels there is no way out. You believe you are ugly/fat/worthless/stupid because day after day the person who is supposed to love you MORE than anyone else does keeps telling you that you are. Keeps PROVING to you that you are. You doubt yourself, eventhough you once felt strong, he makes you weak. You believe no one else would want such a terrible person, this is the best you will ever get. When it's "good"... it's great, but when it's "bad" it's so, so bad. It takes so much time to break you down, and it's so very hard to leave and then the earth moving task to try and rebuild yourself. I never thought I'd fall for that mess, but I did. I never thought I'd be strong again, but I am. I wish I could still feel like I was beautiful... I hope one day I get that back.
Im trying hard to stop being anerexic..
i know it'll kill me.
and i dont think i'll make it...
just typing this is hard enough..
I'm letting you go. For two years I have waited for you to love me the same. I have waited for you honesty and faithfulness. And you slept with another woman again. I finally realize I deserve better, any you may never give me what I deserve, need and want. You may never love me as I love you. You said you don't want to lose me. You should have thought about that before doing this again. If I meant that much to you this wouldn't have happened. You brought this upon yourself. Maybe someday my heart will be able to let you go as well.
I love you honey, but I cheated on you when you were in Europe and he was better in bed than you too.
I always go for girls that like me and not girls that I like.
I used to think it's because I'm shy but maybe it's because I'm scared of rejection.
I'm glad I didn't kill myself in July.
I don't believe in God because I don't believe He would allow us to live this way and feel so helpless.
This post is about chances left untaken. Feelings left unspoken.
If by any chance someone knows Jennifer Wheeler, from Midland Michigan, please show her this page. Thank you.
This post is dedicated to you Jen.
There is not a day that goes by that you are not in my thoughts. I am haunted by the memory of your smile and the light that always seemed to catch in your eyes. By the sound of your voice and the golden tresses of your hair...
I fell in love with you while we were still in Kindergarten. Do you remember how I "protected" you from the "alligators" in the playground?
I always said one day I would marry you, but I never told you.
I was too shy to tell you how I felt as we grew older. Too shy and too awkward. I came so close to asking you to go to the school carnival with me. I should have, but was so afraid that you would have said no. I went alone, just for the hope of seeing you there.
Then came the day you left. Your dad got a job in another state. I remember that day well, how hard I cried. My tears were selfish. They were for what what wasn't but what could have been. I never gave myself the chance to talk with you. I wonder if you too cried. Not for me, but because you had to leave your friends and all you knew behind you.
Then, during High School, you magically came back into my life. It wasn't like before though. You hardly knew I existed anymore. Yet every day I walked out of my way just to casually pass you in the hall, just so I could smile and say hi. It was all I dared.
High School came to an end and I never saw you again. Yet I am still in love with you even today. I missed my chance with you and I regret that.
You are married now, and I hope it is a happy marriage. You deserve someone who will make you happy.
Who am I? No one important as I truly don't think we will ever see each other again.
Just... know that wherever you are, there is someone out here who loves you and prays for your happiness.
I love you Jenny. I always Will.
To this person:
"I can't figure out why so many people would want to stay in an abusive relationship. Is it because they were never taught that they are worth something, and that there is someone special and just perfect for them out there..somewhere?
All these posts seem to be about love, or problems with such things. Anyone ever think about GOd? Yall wanna throw in the towel with life when you aint even tried the creator of life! You look for love in human beings that constantly make mistakes and you think that's as good as it's ever gonna get! I thank God I have a relationship with him and when a man comes along, I'll know for sure if hes the one for me. Not only that, but he'll be the one and only perfect man God had planned for me all along.
Life is rotten without God, and I"m not just talkin about "Jesus I accept you into my heart"..I'm talkin abot...read your bible, get the Holy Ghost (evidence speaking in other tongues), live according to the word of God..get baptized in Jesus name...That's when life changes.
That's not secret, I love my God."
I used to follow God blindly. I believed so much it hurt. But now that I'm old, I've become so confused. First of all, I begged God to help me through and help to stop my nervous breakdown two years ago, but I don't think my prayers were answered. I praying so hard, and I keep wondering why he still allowed it to happen. Then I began to read the Bible, and Leviticus nearly shattered me. Why are women to be seen as unclean during their period? It's a natural part of life that God build into us!
I also wonder this: if we are supposed to only believe in the new testament and we don't have to followed what's in the old testament, then why is homosexuality still consider an abomination? Okay, so polyester, vegitable gardens, and shrimp are suddenly okay now, but homosexuality isn't? What about those people who are just born homosexual? God made them that way, right? So why would he be against it?
Your post really reminded me of my Aunt. She's put everything she is into God, and I think it's so wonderful. But I also believe it's just something I can't do right now until I figure some things out.
That's my wish for this year. To figure out more things about my God.
I want to live again. None of this, "I have anxiety today because I have to set a foot outside my house," crap! I want to be able to come and go as I please, and not feel so anxious that I may have a panic attack. I hate this so much. I'm better off than I was two years ago, even a year ago, but I'm still afraid that I may slip through again and lose my mind completely.
i was with him for a year. And now I can't be with anyone but him. He was my first everything and now everytime i have sex i think of him.
Someone asked me out a while back, i told them i was getting over a break up... truth is i'm STILL getting over it. it's been a year now and he's never online. I miss fighting with him. But I also know I hate him. He changed me and turned me into the lut I am today. I screw people because of what he did to me. and I know i can never take it back.
I saw him a few months ago at a party. We had sex. I told him i still loved him. He got scared.
When I make decisions I always think of how they will impact him...
I'm so in love, and I need to be saveed, because I can't stand the way he treated me.
I'm supposed to be working, but I'm trying to get around to visit my blog friends.
I trust you won't tell anyone. 8-)
I wish i knew what made you stop loving me.
i secrelty wish that you'll miss me, realise no other girl will love you the way i did, and come back to me and start treating me right.
everyday i wonder if todays the day you realise you really do love me. i check my phone for a missed call, or text.
it hurts because i know you wont come back to me. and i really wish you would.
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